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Name: Alysha
Birthday: 6/22/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: I'm on the swim team at school and at the park.....I love my bf Warren a.k.a. SBLP :)
Expertise: swimming, reading, school, hanging with friends, cooking, and shopping (lifeguard salary...oh yeah)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
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Member Since:
11/29/2003
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| Why Am I Not Enough?
By: Alysha Boze
why am I not enough?
why am I so bad?
what's wrong with me?
why am I not enough?
why is my love wrong?
why is my love not reciprecated?
why am I not enough?
why do people hurt me?
why do people lie to me?
why am I not enough?
why can't I have a happy ending?
why can't I have a lasting love?
why am I not enough?
what do I need to change?
why do I need to change?
why am I not enough? | | |
| ok, i'm tired of being a nice person. Everytime u give someone the benifit of the dougt or give them a second chance, they screw u over in the end.... I'm so sick of crying...maybe i can be a bitch like eveyone else so then when i'm hurt back it will not hurt as bad... I try and try to have trust but its never enough... i can't believe after everything we've been through, he could have treated me like that....i've never been yelled at like before (not even by my mom).....that hurt.... did i do something bad that i'm completely missing?...imean it was just like a swim meet to me...parents r home...the mom even giving me towels.... parents knew... i have more respect for myself to fuck someone else after being broken up for only an hour...and i HAVE MORE LOVE THEN THAT to fuck someone...i don't like the other guy like that..... he is my friend and i haven't givin him a reason to think other wise....i've never kissed that other guy.. not even on the cheeck...i mean i'm sry.... i don't what else to say except that this isn't fair...i don't deserve this.....i can't believe that i tried so hard to talk to him...i mean i know i didn't do anything wrong....thats why i told him about it....if i hide it then i would understand...i would be sneaking around, but i'm not....i really wish that he would call me so we could talk about this....god, why am i so hooked on pleaseing him? ....he hurt me... i should be pissed and not want to see him....but i do..... i almost when to get ready to go to his work to talk to him.... stop it!!!!!! be mad!!!! fuck!!!!! god, i hate myself sometimes.... | | |
| I hate feeling like this.... something you what so much is dangled in front of you but you can't have it. The one thing that makes you happiest is gone, again. This time its different. Now there is no hope of getting that thing back... not matter what you do or how hard you try, you'll never get the thing back. It was ripped away. Everything feels empty. Everything hurts. Everything remindes you that you can't have it. Knowing that you and that thing were just the right match, knowing everything was perfect...and now its gone.... nothing feels right anymore. I want to stay at home, in my pajama's and wait for the feeling to go away, even though it never will. This will ALWAYS be in your heart. No matter how much time passes, it will always be there. Nothing could ever change that | | |
| "We should be in school"
"I know"
"Were u wanna go?" *hehehehe*
"You know were"
hehehehe........me and Warrie pants are back together and today was GREAT!!!! yesterday was GREAT!!!! everythings GREAT!!!!.....
FINALLY appied to Kendall.....think I did REALLY good on my a.p. stats final....FAILED THE HELL OUTTA MY ECON FINAL.....damn.....like 74 outta 75 wrong.....iunno...well see monday....i don't wanna see my grade....but i do at the same time... I HATE SCHOOL!!!! whatever.....
MILI"S BACK!!!! i love that girl... i missed her so much | | |
| What ever would make a person think thier not worth anything when they are a VERY important part in many peoples lives? Why is it when something is SO good, it gets ripped from you? | | |
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